Tuesday, November 10, 2009
On a happier note, we took Jade to have her pictures taken at Ms. Carolyn's today and she did AWESOME. The little girl is amazing. She even held her head up for a much longer period of time today with some help getting her situated! I can't wait for 2 weeks so we can see them printed.
I don't know what's wrong with me here lately... maybe it's just my bad day last night, but it was horrible. I feel like I am just a nanny taking care of Kenny's child and cleaning his house. I don't feel appreciated at all. His argument for not wanting her to sleep in the pack n' play is because he can't touch her or hug her whenever he wants in the middle of the night. Well... you don't do that that often anyways, and I don't see him getting up with her to make her bottle and change her diaper at 4:00am anyways. Ugh. I just want to be told that I am appreciated and loved every now and then. Blah... sorry I am just down in the dumps I suppose.
I hope everyone is getting in the holiday spirit. It is creeping up on us for sure! L0ve to everyone and if you have a chance say a prayer that I will be uplifted!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Jade is holding her head up for longer periods of time all by herself! She has rolled from her back to her side already! I know it sounds crazy but that little girl is a mover! She smiles constantly and wants to laugh out loud so bad! She has started sleeping from around midnight until close to 4 every night and wakes up around 7 to start her day. She LOVES LOVES LOVES bath time! She lost her umbilical cord on the 17th and we gave her her first tub bath on the 19th! She almost grins when we give her her bath! It is too cute!
WE fall more and more in love with our little girl each day and we sware she gets prettier by the second! We are getting her pictures taken next week and we are SO excited to see how they turn out!
We love you all!
Kenny, Becca, and Jade
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
We will be welcoming Jade into this world on Thursday, October 1st, 2009 at 3:00 in the afternoon! I have to go back to Willow Creek tomorrow at 1:30 for blood work just to make sure my levels are great (clotting wise) and to run tests for other things. It is so close I can feel it! I am so excited and a little nervous, but I know that God wanted it this way or it wouldn't have happened.
I also am going to spend the day tomorrow with my Mom and Aunt Deloris. I have a hair appointment at 10:00, then we will go to the hospital to get my blood drawn, then off to NuNails for pedicures. I need something done with my poor feet and legs! Ha! I also have to get some last minute things from Wal-Mart before the big day! I am just so excited and so ready to hold my little girl, even though her Daddy is going to be the one who holds her for a couple hours at least, I am going to get her when I go into recovery and you better believe that I am not going to let her go for a long LONG LONG time! :-)
Be praying for us, and come and visit Jade Allison if you want too!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Be praying for us that Kenny first of all will be able to handle the demands that a C-Section puts on a husband/new dad, Me that I will heal quickly and that I will be able to rock and roll as soon as possible, and for Jade that she will be perfectly healthy with 10 fingers and 10 toes and that she is beautiful and happy!
We love you all and will keep you posted on Monday about our scheduled time and what proceedures we will be going through.
P.S.- Baby Danny is here!!!!! He was born Wednesday September 23rd at 7:18pm. 7lbs. 7 oz. 21 inches long! He is precious! Looks just like Lonnie Gene! (Except no hair! Ha!) We love you guys and can't wait for Jade and Danny to meet! Katie and Lonnie Gene did so well! He's a keeper for sure!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Here goes all the exciting/semi-scary news... Today we had our regular weekly appointment. I noticed when she took my Blood pressure it was higher than normal. 140/84. Super high for me, but not really that crazy high. When we got called back almost immediately I should have figured something out. As soon as our nurse came in she checked my blood pressure again and this time it was higher than a few minutes ago. 144/86. Ugh. I had to lay down and wait on the table. By this time Kenny is about to panic anyways. She proceeds to check it a couple more times and it finally was down to 138/84. Anyways, Dr. P checks me out and guess what NOTHING HAD CHANGED. Jade had actually moved her head back up into me farther instead of down. Dr. P said that she had been having a strange gut feeling about my delivery anyways, and that she was very concerned about my blood pressure. I have also swelled greatly since yesterday. She is already calling me a mild pre-eclamptic. We were told to be prepared to deliver via C-section because she is not letting Jade stay in there much longer and that we will start coming every 3-4 days now instead of weekly. I am also to go straight to the hospital if I have a headache or start seeing stars. I am also suppose to take it very easy until Thursday. Just kinda relaxing so if you are coming to Jill's Pampered Chef party tomorrow night, I am going to be the best host ever... mainly because I won't be talking much. Ha! Lauren really wants Jade to come on Thursday because she will be here on the weekend and she wants to meet her! I don't blame her at all. We are very anxious to hold her and we want to have the safest delivery for me and Jade that we can.
So if my blood pressure isn't back down or if I still haven't made any progress than it looks like Thursday could be D day! But she said more than likely for sure Jade should be born by next Thursday the 1st of October. Be keeping us in your prayers, mainly that God will just make things right for us one way or the other, but it really wouldn't hurt my feelings too much to be able to hold her in my arms by Thursday night! :-)
Saturday, September 19, 2009
If we get them today then I will totally post them tonight. I am excited about seeing them. I hope Kenny just cooperates well throughout them all. Bless his heart he HATES pictures. I told him that today was not about him and not about me but instead about Jade! I am however really bummed that my hands are so swollen today. I really want to have my rings on during the pictures since a lot of them will be just hands, but I can't fit them on. :-( Boo. Oh well, we know we are married maybe I can just photoshop them into the picture!
Today also marks 38 weeks! So super exciting! We have came a long way since January when we found out we were expecting. Now we are expecting her arrival any day. I am just so ready to meet her and hold her in my arms! We will post more tonight or Monday for sure! Another doctor's appointment. Let's pray there is some progress this time!
Monday, September 14, 2009
So our doctor's appointment was good. I hadn't made any more progress, but the way I look at it is every day we are closer to the due date is technically progress! I was bummed at first, but I realize that she is perfectly healthy and doing great! Still a little squirt at around 6 pounds, but active and has a heartbeat that is strong as any boys ever will be! I was praised for losing 3 more pounds of fluid! Woo Hoo! Thank the Lord. I am still really swollen in the legs but I am doing good.
We are just so ready to see Jade and we are excited to make that phone call to let everyone know that it is finally time! WE go back to the doctor next Monday at 2:00. Bummer I know, we are so spoiled by having early appointments, but we will take what we get! Be praying hard! We just can't wait to meet her!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
The exam went well, but I did not like that Group B Strep swab they preformed. As a matter of fact it hurt BAD! She said we didn't have any significant numbers of effacement or dialation, but that I more than likely would Monday at our next appointment. I actually think that she helped us a long a little after that appointment. I had some bleeding for the next 2 days! She said that now we are in the time frame of "any day now!" That made me very excited. I am very glad that our chickens sold Wednesday so that Kenny will be able to go with me to the rest of the appointments until she is born! That is only 3 weeks and 1 day! We cannot wait to hold Jade and dress her up in all of her adorable things! Be praying for a healthy and quick labor and delivery and for a healthy and happy little girl!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
We went back to the doctor on Monday the 31st, and I didn't have a great appointment. As of 8 days ago, I started to get sick with allergies. Ewww, but expected this time of year for me. I always get hacky (if that is a term!). However by the time I finally got to go to the doctor it had changed into more than allergies and I am now getting over an Upper Respiratory Infection! It is horrible. But thank God I can take antibiotics. So that was the first big bummer for me! Secondly, my blood pressure had risen to 130/80-ish which isn't too terribly bad, but it caused concern from Dr. Partridge, Next I had gained 8 pounds in fluids in 2 weeks. It was horrible. My whole head was swollen and I mean it I thought I was going to die. I was actually told that she was glad that I had stopped working Friday because she was getting ready to write me off onto strict bedrest just so I wouldn't have to work. Ugh. So instead of waiting to go back to a 2 week appointment we are on our weekly ones. Dr. Partridge also guessed that Jade was around 4 and 1/2 pounds, which made me feel like I was a bad mom for her being so little, however Kenny did remind me that it was just a guess from feeling her from the outside. Plus, Dr. Partridge wasn't concerned at all about her being that size and that she figures she will just be a little girl. Bummer though because I want a healthy girl, not a teeny tiny baby. We are shooting for a 6 pound princess instead, which is likely she will be by the end of the month!
So, that is all the excitement so far, but I will be better at keeping this updated since I will have more to talk about since we go back weekly. Hopefully I will feel so much better tomorrow that I can actually get a bunch of housework done. I may just have to result to staying up later and sleeping in longer! Ha! Who knows, just be praying that Jade will be healthy, I will finish up with this nasty infection, and that we will be able to get everything done before she gets here! We go back to the doctor on Tuesday since Monday is Labor Day and I will post more then. At least I will have some indications of whether or not we are actually close to D-Day!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Jade's super cute dress, shoes, and hairbow that Lenora got her!
This is her "Chicken House" dress as Kenny calls it! Complete with argyle leg warmers!
Jade's Halloween outfits! We don't know exactly what size she'll be so we got a newborn Flower and a 0-3 Month Pink Kitty! So super cute she may just have to wear both of them!
This is the "coming home" outfit. I have 3 bow options for her. I need imput on which one matches the best!
Monday, July 27, 2009
I am currently in the stages of packing THE hospital bag. Just because What to Expect told me too! LOL! I totally trust that book with my life since I have NO clue as to what to expect! (no pun intended!) We are going to put the carseat in the Tahoe after our shower on Sunday just to be ready. Plus, who knows when she will decide to make her entrance into this world. Better prepared than not, that's the way I roll. I am a checklist freak, so you better believe I am working on that at the moment! I am also compiling a "who to call list". If you would like to be added, let me know! Jill is going to keep everyone updated through the cell phone/facebook I hope and hopefully it will be a quick labor! :) We are just so excited and ready and nervous, and all sorts of emotions. Well if you have any advice as to what to pack, let me know!
That's all the excitement for now! Oh, hope to see you at the Baby Shower next Sunday. 1-4 pm at the Marble United Baptist Church! Baby Jade Party as Julie calls it, and she thinks there will be party hats! Ha! Talk to you all soon!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Anyways, I have a busy day full of cleaning to do today. I plan on at least starting on one end of the house and moving to the other end, top to bottom, until it is spotless! I'm sure however, that my husband will somehow manage to mess everything up again though. I'm already raising a toddler I think in that department! Ha! I promise more belly pictures to come, Kenny just isn't the best at taking them! Rounding in on the 30 week mark, and getting closer and closer to single digit week countdowns! Woo hoo! We can't wait!
Oh and our doctor's appointment went very well on Monday. Her heartrate was perfect, my stomach was measuring right between 29 and 30, and we go back the 18th of August, then the 25th for our Labor/Delivery class, then we go back the 31st for another appointment! How exciting! We are in the home stretch as Dr. Partridge calls it! Yay!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I dread going to the doctor on Monday, I am afraid she will be upset about how much weight I've gained. I haven't weighed at home at all because I don't see a point in upsetting myself, plus the scales there are always way off from ours. I think I may just be in one of those hormonal moods today. Pregnancy can be so hard sometimes! I love this little girl and all of her movements, but I don't like the cry baby I've become even more of!
I am getting very excited however for our baby shower that is in like 2 weeks! I am mailing invitations tomorrow so you should be getting them soon! Hopefully! Well I guess that's all I have to say. Vote on when Baby Jade will be here and see who will win the bragging rights of being the closest one! Ha!
We love you all!
Kenny, Becca, and Baby Jade
Monday, June 29, 2009
So you may not be able to read it very good, but it is cute I think. So my style, so that makes me proud. I'm just excited that My sister is so awesome at this kind of stuff. She is also making the cake! What a talented family I have! P.S.- This is an invite to you all who read my blog. Don't worry official invites will be sent, but consider yourselves lucky to be the firsts to get a glimpse at them! :-)
In other news... I am so excited about Lenora coming home tomorrow!!!!! Yay! I say Home, I guess technically Arkansas is not her home, but I am ECSTATIC that she will be here! She gets to find out what the baby is "hopefully" today! The time delay from Cali to Arkansas is KILLING me! I can't wait to go shopping with her when she gets home. yay!
Well I guess that's all that has been going on! I'll end the post with some of my favorite Jade things so far! (I can't wait to go register for the baby shower! Woo HOo!)
Her Tutu onesie! Larry Plumlee is already ready to take her pictures as soon as she's born!
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
We were measuring a week early too so they didn't officially change my due date, however Dr. Partridge did say that she expects Miss. Jade to come sometime between Middle September and will not go over our due date of the 9th of October! That just means we will get to meet her sooner!
In other news, she is currently weighing in at a whopping 12 oz. and was 7.5 inches long from her head to her bottom. They couldn't measure her whole body because she simply would not stay still. She rolled around, covered her head with her arms and was absolutely precious! I have always LOVED children, but now my heart is filled with so much greater of a love that I can't stand it! We are so ready to meet her, and Me and Kenny are just so proud of our little girl for being as healthy and happy as she is! She already is so spoiled and her closet is FULL of pink stuff and we haven't even had her shower yet! Ha! I'm determined for her to appreciate all colors however and we're working on greens and browns too!
Thank you for loving our little precious baby girl! I'm sure she will love all of you!
Love,Kenny, Becca, and baby Jade
Her HUGE feet!
We think that she is beautiful already!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I especially loved the little storks she put in it and the baby bottles! So creative! Ha! She also bought me a pink rose bush that I planted just to see how quickly it and our baby grows! Julie and Jill also bought me a crossage so I wore 2 that day! There's was precious also:
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Getting excited about Mother's Day... I'll post more tomorrow!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
This is my unspoken prayer request! Please if you have time, just lift me up to the Lord and pray that his knowledge will pour down on me to where my eyes will be open and see His wonderful plan!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
A few hours ago I sneezed REALLY Loud and hard and I started dying laughing! Evidentally our little booger didn't like it that I scared it to death! Hmmm... must have been sleeping and I woke it up! Sorry Bebe!
Tomorrow I am going to go shopping for cute things with Lenora and I can't wait. I have so much to do tomorrow that it probably won't be a very extensive trip, however I still want to spend as much time with her as I can since she will be going back to California soon! I love my best friend!
Anyways, I'm waiting on more laundry to get done and then I'm going to pick up some more and hit the sack! (Sorry Kenny that I can't stay up all night long with you, but I promise it's harder to sleep when I know you aren't even in the house! I LOVE SELLING CHICKENS, however I don't like the lonely night it holds!)
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Speaking of Baby... we had our doctor's appointment Monday and I finally got to hear the heartbeat! It was precious! Dr. Partridge and I figured that the baby was sleeping since it didn't move around at all and only took her just a few seconds to find it! She forgot to tell me the count, but I didn't even think to ask her since I was a little blown away by how precious it's first "noise" already was! Ha! She said that our baby was healthy and growing perfectly! We just can't wait to meet it! We scheduled our ULTRASOUND FOR MAY 18TH AT 8:00AM!!!!!! I can't WAIT! I informed the lady that I would be in the parking lot at 4:00am incase the girl wanted to come in early that day for some reason! Who am I kidding I'm not going to sleep at all the night before! I think that it's a boy and I took a gender predictor kit from Walgreens and it said BOY! Ha! There is the problem though... a for sure GIRL name, however having a seriously difficult time finding a boy name! Oh well!
Jeff and Holly Walker our friends finally had their little girl Alli yesterday! Hearing the play by play of her labor made me want to be the one giving birth too! Ha! I told Kenny and he said I just can't wait to go through that together! We just really want to hold our baby in our arms finally! When you have waited as long as we have for this baby... 9 months is LONG ENOUGH! Ha! We haven't got to go see little Alli yet, because we have HUGE chickens, but hopefully we will get to meet her soon enough! She is precious though from her pictures! Congrats guys!
And on another note.... another friend is expecting!!!!!!!! We are so excited for you!!!!! (You know who you are!!!!)
Monday, April 20, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I was talking to Kenny last night and we can't believe that come this November it would have been 2 years that we started trying to have a family. Thank God that we will have our own little one to hold come that time, but it made us really stop and thank God for his blessings. Not very many people realize the struggle that it had on our marriage, our relationships with other people, my own personal struggles with depression during the whole thing because it technically was a ME problem that was causing us to fail time after time.
We praise the Lord for such a wonderful doctor that I had the amazing opportunity to have ever since I started going for yearly check ups (shortly after I started seeing her, she quit taking patients!!! Hmmm!). I now realize that that was all in God's plan. Dr. Partridge is an AMAZING christian woman. I found out that when we were both Freshmen in College, we not only went to the same school, not only lived in the same dorm, but we also lived in the exact same ROOM!!!! Crazy I know! She helped me overcome the first round of problems that started at an early age. Later on I would find out that she herself couldn't have her children on her own. She was an infertility patient and her and her husband both are OBGYN'S. They knew the struggles but never thought they would have to go through them. After many unsuccessful treatments they finally have 2 beautiful kids through IN-VITRO. God had their plans already lined out too, but it takes a valley and a climb to see the glory. She helped me so much while I would go in month after month, through the tears (which she not only watched me cry, but cried with me herself), through the failed attempts, and finally through the getting pregnant stage. When Kenny met her for the first time, she didn't say a word, but when she walked through the door she started screaming and jumping up and down waving her arms in excitment. (How many doctors would actually do that now?). We truely are blessed to have her as our doctor. Every month when we see her she writes a note at the bottom of the sheet and says "Come back in however many weeks WITH ME!!!" (All caps!) Thank you God for our doctor!
Now as we start the 15 week stage, our little baby is around 4 1/2 inches long and weighs about the same size of a large navel orange. It's eyes are moving from side to side, it has more coordination, strength, and the smarts to wiggle it's fingers, toes, and even suck it's thumb! Awwww. It's breathing, sucking, and swallowing, and becoming more and more active by kicking, flexing, and moving it's arms and legs! What a cute BEBE as Julie calls it.
Everyone is saying it's a boy, but last night Jill had a dream that when we went in the doctor said it's a girl! Ha! Who knows. I am just so excited to be having a baby that we don't care what it is! We schedule that appointment in a couple of weeks and we're pushing for the first of May! Hopefully we'll get an early ultrasound! I'm going to put a poll up like Holly did for people to guess what we're having!
Monday, April 6, 2009
I like it... Clean Cut Green and Brown! Perfect! (For a boy or girl!) So sweet!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
This one is of it's hands up in the air... the "Praise the Lord" stance!
This is one of it's hand flexed and waving "Hi Mommy and Daddy!"
And this one is of the CUTEST baby in the whole wide world! I personally think that it looks like me! LOL!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Let me know what you think! I'm so indecisive!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Isn't it precious! Ha!!! Well the big black blob is the sac and the little round ball inside of the sac is the yolk sac, and then if you will look ever so closely under the yolk sac, there our little bean is! It's pretty big actually! We got to see the little baby's heartbeating very fast and the doctor was so impressed by it's strong heartbeat! (Could be a sign of mulitples! It's still too early to tell... the doctor said that even around 5 months they most of the time diagnose it then! Weird!) Anyways, we should find out more when we go back for our Heartbeat appointment when we actually get to hear the heartbeat! It's getting more and more exciting and real to me every day! We were only 1 day off on our due date which is now October 9th, but I'm sticking with my 8th on our tickers because it is so close and I'm sure that it will change again soon! LOL! The doctor also said that our chances of now having a miscarriage (after seeing how strongly our little one wants to live by it's serious heartbeat) is only 1 percent! Praise the Lord! It was so neat to watch Kenny in the doctor's room with me! He just got so close to the ultrasound monitor that it made me want to cry. When we saw it's heart beating out of control I was like Thank you God... Thank you so much for finally giving us the desires of our heart! This pregnancy is already flying by faster and faster, however I'm excited because I just want to hold it or them in my arms! We should find out what we are having (boy/girl) sometime around my birthday in May! What a wonderful birthday present! Yay! Well I'll post the 2nd picture they took also, but thanks for being such great friends and loving us and our little baby already! Keep praying for us! We Love you all!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
Oh I had my first pregnancy symptom last night. EXHAUSTION! LOL!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
But here is where the prayer request comes in...
She told me that my progesterone level was a 13.5. Which sent me into a panic because I had absolutetly no clue what was good or not and since I did know that that was the miscarriage level. Anyways I am starting a supplement that I have to "ummm how to say this nicely" "insert" every night until I am 11weeks along. She said not to panic because a 15 is where they normally don't medicate, and I was only 1.5 points away from there, but due to the previous problems we have had Dr. Partridge just wanted to be extra safe and make sure this baby makes it into this world. God bless that woman, however now I am a little rattled from a) not knowing exactly how to ummmm properly use the medication and b) praying that our baby will be ok. I tell you what this pregnancy thing is so scary. We have waited so long for this and then when you finally do get pregnant it's like you are constantly freaking out. My poor kid is going to be stressed out all the time! :-)
Anyways, please just pray for us that our little orange seed will be okay and that we'll make it through.
Love you all!
P.S.- Lynn I am so glad that you took Jamie's advice and started reading our blog! Thanks for the prayers! :-)
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Please keep our baby in your prayers that everything will go great! We love you all so much!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
We're rounding up on the closing of another month and another time that we test to see if we will become parents. I've not felt real well since yesterday, but i am sure it is just all of the time that we've been spending trying to help and comfort friends and family members. Life can easily get you down sometimes.
Here are my prayer requests:
1) Please pray earnestly for me. I just need God to lift me up.
2) Pray that my parents will make it to and from Mexico safely.
3) Pray that God will continue to heal my Grandpa from his surgery.
4) Pray that my friend Jennifer will have strength. They have screened her for ovarian cancer, breast cancer, uteren cancer, the works and they won't have the tests until Tuesday. She really needs the prayers.
5) Pray that things will just get better for us in general!
Happy Sunday morning and I pray that everyone is doing well.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Back to my real post. So days 1-3 have focused on not saying anything negative at all to your spouse! Well that is being tested today due to the previous rant above. You really don't realize how much you vent to your poor helpless spouse when you have a bad day. I mean Kenny doesn't even say Hello much of the time before I'm all... Ugh you can't believe what happened to me today... yada yada yada. Well our house has been negativity free and it's awesome. I'm just glad that he went to the ballgames tonight so I could vent before I talked to him. Today's dare was to continue the anti-negativity thing and to also buy your spouse something out of the blue just to say "I was thinking about you today!" Well since Huntsville Wal-mart is kinda crappy all I could come up with was a North American Whitetail magazine and a card that really says how much I love him! He LOVES North American Whitetail magazine so I hope that he is shocked that I even thought to buy him one. (He rarely gets them, and only when he thinks about it!) So I hope that he appreciates being thought of!
Anyways, I feel so much better now and I'll quit the rambling. Be praying for us. I have to go back to the doctor on the 12th at 1:00 to have another ultrasound! I sware if I don't literally have something to look at on an ultrasound soon (other than blobs that they say are eggs) I will cry! Ha! Just praying that everything still looks good and that I'm still responding to the medicine! Thanks for being such good friends and for caring!
Monday, January 5, 2009
1) I want first and foremost to strive to be closer to God each and every day. I want to be the christian that I feel inside and show it to others on the outside.
2) I am going to kick my weightwatchers into gear. I've decided that if I focus on something other than just normal things I will be more likely to succeed!
3) I am starting The Love Dare from the movie Fireproof. I haven't seen the movie yet, but I have it already pre-bought because I LOVED Facing the Giants. If you haven't seen Facing the Giants than you need too. It will give you inspiration and know that with God ALL things are possilbe. (Plus it's exactly what Kenny and I are going through right now in our own personal lives... maybe not the football season, but everything else that they go through!) I want to make sure that our marriage is truely God centered and that I do everything I can to make sure that He sees the love and respect that I have for him constantly. I already show him these things, but for instance... Day 1: Love is Patient you are suppose to not say one negative thing towards your spouse all day long (even if it is about work, friends, life, etc.) This is going to be easy since I'm not dealing with Parents today! LOL!
4) Next, I resolve to study and prepare myself more for my Youth Program. That means more time to dig into the Bible and really reflect on God's word and what I'm teaching along with it, be it Team K.I.D.'s material or just plain Sunday School Curriculum!
5) Last but not least, I resolve to take more time for myself, be it by alone time to just read my bible and meditate on the things that God has given me for the day, a trip to the grocery store by myself so I can just praise the Lord through my music, or to just simply buy myself a new shirt once in a while! (That is after I lose some weight! :) Ha!) I just think that sometimes we get so caught up in all of the other things in life that we tend to forget about our own selves!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
New Year's day also brought an unexpected guest! Girls... you guessed it! AF showed her ugly face and crushed yet another month's dream of becoming parents. Life sometimes isn't fair it seems! I started another round of Femara so this is month 4. They stop you on month 5. I don't know where we will go from there if it takes another month. If it is In Vitro Fertilization, Kenny and I can't financially make that decision. We have totally put our prayers and dreams of becoming parents into the hands of God. We know that children are a blessing (the Bible tells us so!), and we also know that the Lord knows the desires of our hearts and that He will bless us with those desires if He sees fit. We know that God will give us children, we just know that, it's just a matter of when He sees it fit. That's the hard part. It's not unusual for us to be impatient and "Human" about things. We can't help but be selfish and want things that others have (i.e. children) but I also think that our Lord is an understanding Lord who felt the same emotions we feel because after all, Jesus was human too. The Bible says that Jesus hurt, cried, smiled, laughed, and felt all normal human feelings. I think that maybe the Lord is testing us... our patience, our faith, our commitment to our marriage and to each other, our Love, etc. The Lord won't give us more than we can handle, but there are times (especially at the end of month after month!) that I just pray and cry and tell the Lord... God I will love you even if you choose not to give us kids, but God just let this hurt be eased. After we lost the baby in July, I finally came to peace with it. I knew that something terrible would have been wrong with it and that God knew that I couldn't have handled it. The Lord has a funny way of dealing with things, but they are always for our best intrest. I just pray that soon God will give us our miracle, and I know that our children are up in heaven waiting for God to say... "okay, it's time to go meet your parents!" in my mind that's how things work. The Lord already has our children with him just waiting for the opportunity to say okay, I think that you're parents are going to be ready to meet you on Earth. That's comforting to me, to know that God already has it all planned. (Sometimes I just wish he would hurry it up already! Ha!)
Prayers are needed for us.... prayers for patience and love, for faith and for courage, prayers for hope and for healing.
Also this week, my Grandpa had open heart surgery to have a valve replaced that was placed there 19 years ago. He made it through the surgery just fine (Praise Jesus!) I was deeply concerned a few weeks ago when they said he was going to have to have the valve replaced, mainly because him and my Grandma weren't saved. I was so scared something would go wrong and he wouldn't have had time to make peace with God. We've been praying for years for them to come to church and finally they started coming. Well 3 weeks ago tomorrow BOTH of my grandparents were saved!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!! We were so happy, and it just proves that God is still on the throne! He still listens and answers prayers (that gave us hope that He would soon answer our prayers about children!!) . He's healing well and now it is just going to take a lot of recovery and down time. (I thought that this was an awesome PRAISE report!)
I hope that the new year will bring everyone blessings and a chance to strive to get closer to God.
Now off to bed to get ready for Julie's 2nd birthday tomorrow! :'-( She's growing up so fast!