Saturday, January 31, 2009

Prayer Request

Well I just got back off the phone with the nurse a few minutes ago. She called to set up our Heartbeat and Ultrasound appointment for the 16th at 11:45. We are so excited. We can't wait to hear the baby and see a blob of a picture of it. It will be great! Kenny's afraid though that it will be bad because he is going to be so busy cleaning out our farm that maybe we won't get finished with that, but I told him there is NO WAY that he is missing this for sure!

But here is where the prayer request comes in...
She told me that my progesterone level was a 13.5. Which sent me into a panic because I had absolutetly no clue what was good or not and since I did know that that was the miscarriage level. Anyways I am starting a supplement that I have to "ummm how to say this nicely" "insert" every night until I am 11weeks along. She said not to panic because a 15 is where they normally don't medicate, and I was only 1.5 points away from there, but due to the previous problems we have had Dr. Partridge just wanted to be extra safe and make sure this baby makes it into this world. God bless that woman, however now I am a little rattled from a) not knowing exactly how to ummmm properly use the medication and b) praying that our baby will be ok. I tell you what this pregnancy thing is so scary. We have waited so long for this and then when you finally do get pregnant it's like you are constantly freaking out. My poor kid is going to be stressed out all the time! :-)

Anyways, please just pray for us that our little orange seed will be okay and that we'll make it through.

Love you all!

P.S.- Lynn I am so glad that you took Jamie's advice and started reading our blog! Thanks for the prayers! :-)

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Drumroll Please!!!!.....

We are so happy! We are praising the Lord for what he has done for us. We just love how awesome God is. He's a merciful God who has finally answered our prayers!!!! We have an ultrasound next week so we can't wait!!!!! The HCG levels were really good around 216 I think or maybe it was 260 I don't really know I was crying at that point just because all the blood work so was great! LOL!

Please keep our baby in your prayers that everything will go great! We love you all so much!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Sooo... much has been going on.

Well it's been a while, so I was up earlier than usual on a Sunday morning and thought I would just get up and put my thoughts down. Kenny's Uncle Gary Thompson passed away Wednesday night from liver and kidney failure. It made me grateful that we won't ever have to go through that because of our lifestyles. I really don't know where my mind is at this point in time so this may be totally scattered! Ha!

We're rounding up on the closing of another month and another time that we test to see if we will become parents. I've not felt real well since yesterday, but i am sure it is just all of the time that we've been spending trying to help and comfort friends and family members. Life can easily get you down sometimes.

Here are my prayer requests:

1) Please pray earnestly for me. I just need God to lift me up.
2) Pray that my parents will make it to and from Mexico safely.
3) Pray that God will continue to heal my Grandpa from his surgery.
4) Pray that my friend Jennifer will have strength. They have screened her for ovarian cancer, breast cancer, uteren cancer, the works and they won't have the tests until Tuesday. She really needs the prayers.
5) Pray that things will just get better for us in general!

Happy Sunday morning and I pray that everyone is doing well.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Update on Wednesday's appointment...

Well the doctor was impressed by how much 1 of the 2 follicles had grown. She gave me a shot of HCG again to make super positive that I will ovulate and told me to work very hard... LOL! So tonight I am preparing a special Candlight dinner for me and Kenny complete with sparkling grape juice! LOL! Then I have everything prepared for no stress evening! We shall see if this will help us this month! Be Praying!

Monday, January 12, 2009

I think that I'm beginning to become accustomed to Ultrasounds...

I had my 5th Ultrasound today... It's not one that they scan over your belly if ya know what I mean. I've always heard so many people talk about how horrible they are, but once you've had 5 going on 6 Wednesday you get used to it. The doctor actually was very excited today. She said I have TWO HUGE follicles on the right side so we're praying twins! Ha! Everything looked great. She wants me to come in on Wednesday morning to get another shot of HCG and to make sure that these eggies get fertilized! Be praying so hard for us. I'm really not supersticious (sp?) but according to the age old ring test we will have twins first, and this is the first time that I've ever had 2 eggs show up at all. That gives me hope, but I'm trying not to get too excited granted the only evidence is the 2 eggs and an old wives tale! :-) anyways, I'll let you know how the doctor's appointment goes this Wednesday! Please pray SOOOOOOOOO hard for us. It's been a long long long LONG road and we're ready to see some light at the end of the tunnel!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Doctor Round 4... Ding Ding Ding

So.... tomorrow I go to the doctor yet again to have another ultrasound. Puke... I really am getting sick of going to the doctor for no logical reason at all. Well you know we've been doing the Love Dare from Fireproof and the other nights dare was to ask your spouse to name 3 things that sorta annoy them about you and to just take it in with no anger but to think about and meditate on so you can work on changing them. So I prayed about it all day dreading it because I knew it was going to be tough to hear. That night came and here goes Kenny: yada yada yada yada yada yada and last but not least, he tells me that he never really wanted to me take the Femara for fertility because he was concerned about it messing with my body. HELLO..... why wasn't this brought to my attention 4 months ago. Geez. I then proceeded to try and "calmly" explain that I just took the doctor's advice because she knew what was best... after all she herself couldn't have her own children without Invitro Fertilization. So I had been really worried about my Grandpa all day anyways due to his heart surgery and then I felt like Kenny didn't even think that it was worth worrying about that we weren't getting pregnant. It kinda hurt my feelings because he made it sound like a year and 4 months wasn't very long at all to be trying and I realize that there are a lot of people who try for years (my boss didn't get a child until after 11 years of trying and that was adoption and then it had been 15 years total by the time she finally had her own baby! I'm afraid I would have gone crazy!) but still it hurt my feelings. I know i was just being selfish, but I think that men don't really understand how emotional it is to try and then wait for the end of the month to just be disappointed time after time. They really don't have to do anything other than "the deed." It's not their bodies that go through all the mess either. They get to enjoy getting excited and ready for the baby to come, but not the pains and other stuff that comes with pregnancy or trying to get pregnant for that matter! Men just don't understand! I pray that God will give Kenny just a little insight into the emotions and pain that comes with us trying to have a baby. Maybe then he would understand just a little of how hard it truely is.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Day 3 of the Love Dare...

Ok, first and foremost let me get this off my chest so that I won't break the Love Dare rules when Kenny gets home... So I'm at church right and I'm so pumped about our new TeamKID material and I'm all studying God's word and getting pumped about all of the things that I am planning for our youth for the upcoming future, when I am sharing this stuff someone has the nerve to be all like "well I think that's a little ridiculous!" I just don't get why people get so snippy when you are actually trying to work for the Lord and cut you down and make you feel like you really aren't doing what the Lord calls you to do just because they are jealous that they aren't running the show! Ugh... anyways, I don't know if that made a lick of sense, but I'm glad it's off my chest because now I won't break the rules!

Back to my real post. So days 1-3 have focused on not saying anything negative at all to your spouse! Well that is being tested today due to the previous rant above. You really don't realize how much you vent to your poor helpless spouse when you have a bad day. I mean Kenny doesn't even say Hello much of the time before I'm all... Ugh you can't believe what happened to me today... yada yada yada. Well our house has been negativity free and it's awesome. I'm just glad that he went to the ballgames tonight so I could vent before I talked to him. Today's dare was to continue the anti-negativity thing and to also buy your spouse something out of the blue just to say "I was thinking about you today!" Well since Huntsville Wal-mart is kinda crappy all I could come up with was a North American Whitetail magazine and a card that really says how much I love him! He LOVES North American Whitetail magazine so I hope that he is shocked that I even thought to buy him one. (He rarely gets them, and only when he thinks about it!) So I hope that he appreciates being thought of!

Anyways, I feel so much better now and I'll quit the rambling. Be praying for us. I have to go back to the doctor on the 12th at 1:00 to have another ultrasound! I sware if I don't literally have something to look at on an ultrasound soon (other than blobs that they say are eggs) I will cry! Ha! Just praying that everything still looks good and that I'm still responding to the medicine! Thanks for being such good friends and for caring!

Monday, January 5, 2009

I don't do resolutions, but....

This year I am making a list of "resolutions" these are actually things that I would just like to strive to accomplish.....

1) I want first and foremost to strive to be closer to God each and every day. I want to be the christian that I feel inside and show it to others on the outside.

2) I am going to kick my weightwatchers into gear. I've decided that if I focus on something other than just normal things I will be more likely to succeed!

3) I am starting The Love Dare from the movie Fireproof. I haven't seen the movie yet, but I have it already pre-bought because I LOVED Facing the Giants. If you haven't seen Facing the Giants than you need too. It will give you inspiration and know that with God ALL things are possilbe. (Plus it's exactly what Kenny and I are going through right now in our own personal lives... maybe not the football season, but everything else that they go through!) I want to make sure that our marriage is truely God centered and that I do everything I can to make sure that He sees the love and respect that I have for him constantly. I already show him these things, but for instance... Day 1: Love is Patient you are suppose to not say one negative thing towards your spouse all day long (even if it is about work, friends, life, etc.) This is going to be easy since I'm not dealing with Parents today! LOL!

4) Next, I resolve to study and prepare myself more for my Youth Program. That means more time to dig into the Bible and really reflect on God's word and what I'm teaching along with it, be it Team K.I.D.'s material or just plain Sunday School Curriculum!

5) Last but not least, I resolve to take more time for myself, be it by alone time to just read my bible and meditate on the things that God has given me for the day, a trip to the grocery store by myself so I can just praise the Lord through my music, or to just simply buy myself a new shirt once in a while! (That is after I lose some weight! :) Ha!) I just think that sometimes we get so caught up in all of the other things in life that we tend to forget about our own selves!

Happy New Year Everyone!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

What a Week...

Well... geez! Where to begin! Well obviously our New Year's started off with a bang! Literally! We shot skeet on new years day... over 500 shells were shot. (Not even joking! 100 were my own! Ouch!) We had a blast.

New Year's day also brought an unexpected guest! Girls... you guessed it! AF showed her ugly face and crushed yet another month's dream of becoming parents. Life sometimes isn't fair it seems! I started another round of Femara so this is month 4. They stop you on month 5. I don't know where we will go from there if it takes another month. If it is In Vitro Fertilization, Kenny and I can't financially make that decision. We have totally put our prayers and dreams of becoming parents into the hands of God. We know that children are a blessing (the Bible tells us so!), and we also know that the Lord knows the desires of our hearts and that He will bless us with those desires if He sees fit. We know that God will give us children, we just know that, it's just a matter of when He sees it fit. That's the hard part. It's not unusual for us to be impatient and "Human" about things. We can't help but be selfish and want things that others have (i.e. children) but I also think that our Lord is an understanding Lord who felt the same emotions we feel because after all, Jesus was human too. The Bible says that Jesus hurt, cried, smiled, laughed, and felt all normal human feelings. I think that maybe the Lord is testing us... our patience, our faith, our commitment to our marriage and to each other, our Love, etc. The Lord won't give us more than we can handle, but there are times (especially at the end of month after month!) that I just pray and cry and tell the Lord... God I will love you even if you choose not to give us kids, but God just let this hurt be eased. After we lost the baby in July, I finally came to peace with it. I knew that something terrible would have been wrong with it and that God knew that I couldn't have handled it. The Lord has a funny way of dealing with things, but they are always for our best intrest. I just pray that soon God will give us our miracle, and I know that our children are up in heaven waiting for God to say... "okay, it's time to go meet your parents!" in my mind that's how things work. The Lord already has our children with him just waiting for the opportunity to say okay, I think that you're parents are going to be ready to meet you on Earth. That's comforting to me, to know that God already has it all planned. (Sometimes I just wish he would hurry it up already! Ha!)

Prayers are needed for us.... prayers for patience and love, for faith and for courage, prayers for hope and for healing.

Also this week, my Grandpa had open heart surgery to have a valve replaced that was placed there 19 years ago. He made it through the surgery just fine (Praise Jesus!) I was deeply concerned a few weeks ago when they said he was going to have to have the valve replaced, mainly because him and my Grandma weren't saved. I was so scared something would go wrong and he wouldn't have had time to make peace with God. We've been praying for years for them to come to church and finally they started coming. Well 3 weeks ago tomorrow BOTH of my grandparents were saved!!!!! Hallelujah!!!!! We were so happy, and it just proves that God is still on the throne! He still listens and answers prayers (that gave us hope that He would soon answer our prayers about children!!) . He's healing well and now it is just going to take a lot of recovery and down time. (I thought that this was an awesome PRAISE report!)

I hope that the new year will bring everyone blessings and a chance to strive to get closer to God.

Now off to bed to get ready for Julie's 2nd birthday tomorrow! :'-( She's growing up so fast!